I am unsure. I am being selfish or selfless. I know some people would say the later. Yet others, people I am close to, people I care about, have said the first.
Does everyone have this internal conflict? I don’t think.
Lets talk about one person I know doesn’t. We will call him Craig. He most certainly don’t worry if he is being selfish or not. I used to think I was going to be happier than him, so it would be ok. In general though, am I happy now? The answer is no. He seemed happy enough.
“I wish I could be the one,
the one who won’t care at all.
I am not going to be stupid, this isn’t as bad as my blog 2(?) blogs ago. Afterall, would hate to give the people who think I am childish and attention seeking more fuel. Would hate to prove the ones who think I am too self-centered right.
At the moment, the jury is still out. Unless I change my mind, they must all agree to change my mind. Who knows what comes next?